On today’s show, author and shaman Raven Kaldera talks about spiritual BDSM. Can it be part of your spiritual journey? Can sex and BDSM be a spiritual path?

We also talk about what to wear – from socks and undies to a pimping my new leather vest!

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Links for this show –
Raven Kaldera
Winter Wickedness

This week, we have a replay of the Ms Protocol presentation that dawn and I did in central Ohio a few weeks ago. We also have our first ’squee!’ moment with being reverse star struck and dig on awesome vendors Brian and Dottie Wolf from Needle Play Design.

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Join us in Columbus, OH for an open facilitated discussion on Master slave protocol. After knocking out some basic terminology, we’ll talk about topics ranging from protocol within a Ms relationship; perspectives of Ms to Ms people and Ms House to Ms House; protocols regarding various Ms statuses (like “trained by” or “protective collar”), as well as protocol toward alt lifestyle (but not) Ms people (and vice versa).

We’ll also look at what to do with our mistakes, the “yoga principle”, and a variety of other Master slave protocol based topics. There will be plenty of room for participation and interactive activities.

Notes:

* A second session focusing on Leather Protocol will be held in upcoming weeks, time and location to be determined
* There is no cost for this event
* Part of a local group, event or munch? Bring flyers and information and drop it on the provided Information table
* Finally, special thanks to the Columbus Ohio Rope Group for allowing us the space to hold this activity. CO_RG is holding a rope group meeting that day from 2 PM to 4 PM – visit the CO_RP Yahoo group for more information!

date: Sunday, October 18, 2009
time: 05:30 PM to 07:30 PM
where: Stonewall Columbus (upstairs)
address: 1160 N High St, Columbus, OH 43201 map
cost: no cost

A packed show this week! We interview Master and slave 2009 title holders Master Kristina, Fink, and Esteban regarding Master+slave Polyamorous relationships! The also talk about competing in the Master/slave competition at GLLA (they won!)

We share some of our thoughts about Ms and about our Ms House, House Metta. And we talk about Dan’s new submissive, gem.

Also, we talk about a very interesting camping weekend at Kamp Kink we just returned from. And, our upcoming weekend at Adventures In Sexuality: Central Ohio Perversion Excursion.

We also review a bdsm love blog called Journey Into Submission

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On this weeks show, we talk to the members of Castle Griffin, a Ms based polyamorous educational service household.

We also hear about the upcoming Adventures in Sexuality: COPE event and listen to a short promo for JUJUN, the new audio book by Graydancer

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I had an awesome weekend at Woodsstocks. Met wonderful people and had a great time.

One thing that really surprised me though, was what turned out to be so special. I would think the presentation,
or a scene or time spent with new friends would be what stands out in my memories. But, even though all of that was
great…what stands out the most is my chance to do service.

Another leather house was there and the submissive of the house had brought real dishes and table clothes and such
for all of the meals. The Master of the house invited Dan and I to join them during one of their lunches. Dan offered
my services to help serve the meal. I was so excited at the prospect!!! In the past I would have been a little nervous.
But, not this time. This really spoke to my heart and I knew I’d make Sir proud. I showed up early to the lunch space
and offered my services to the head slave. She showed me how she likes to set the table. I layed out cloth napkins and
flowers on each plate. I put together bowls of strawberries and cherries. I placed glasses of drink in the correct place
on the table. I stood with the other submissives as we waited for the Dominants to take their place. I waited to eat until
the head Master had had his first bite and Dan told me I could eat.

Then, Dan stood and thanked the Master of the house for inviting us to lunch with them and let them know that he was honored.
I got up from the table and retreived the fruit juice that he had brought for camping, and some chocolate that we had bought the night before,
offered it to the Master and then to the rest of the house. I loved how it made me feel to be serving the host house with our house’s
offering of gratitude.

Dan was my Master and I was his slave. We were of one leather house, having formal lunch with another leather house. Being able
To serve in such an environment …..the experience was amazing to me. My heart was happy.

I had to go thank them more than once for providing such an atmosphere and giving me the chance to serve.

In June, we realized we missed having a peer group of people who are either in 24×7 power exchange relationships, or identify as lifestyle Master, Dominants, submissives or slaves. We had a great turn out so are hosting another one. We are going to sit around and chat about topics that are related to Ms and Ds and TPE relationships. And we are inviting you to join us.
It will be an informal gathering, in a roundtable open discussion format. We’ve run a few of these in the past and they go pretty easy once you get them moving.

* What – Ms roundtable
* When – Saturday, July 25th at 2pm
* Where – to be determined
* Who – anyone interested in Ms/Ds as a lifestyle

Want to learn more? We’ll try to keep information updated here -> http://tinyurl.com/colmschat

Questions? Feel free to write me at chg2winter at gmail dot com

Our first informal gather went great! We had a good time, good turn out, and a lot of positive feedback. More coming

My journey from a submissive to a slave

Sometimes it’s hard to sit here and put into words something that so changed my life. How do you put into words what drives you to pull out a piece of yourself and try to live a fantasy life with it? Then, how it becomes not just a fantasy, but your life, your being?

It is very hard for me to put into words my journey from submissive to slave. I don’t even remember if it was a goal of mine or that I understood the difference between the two until it happened.

When Dan and I decided to move into together, we knew that we were going to give D/s a try on a deeper level than we had done before. Before it was ….well, not so much ‘play’….but it wasn’t 24/7. We were only D/s during certain times that we had set up before hand. This little taste of D/s became a very real craving for me. The times of submission that I experienced spoke to my soul. I needed to submit to Dan. I enjoyed that fear that happened from trusting him and that growth that happened when I walked through the fears. I enjoyed trusting someone so completely. That is where my empowerment came from. I’ve had a distrust of people for a long time and a distrust of myself. To totally let that go and trust that my Dominant had my best interest at heart, was very heady for me. Though I struggled with some of the commands, I wanted to let go more and more. I resisted and even as a submissive, I still questioned some of the things that he had me do. I didn’t want to question. I wanted to be completely his and totally trusting of what he would have me do.

I worked on that, not knowing where it would lead me, but knowing that is where I wanted to be. I stopped pointing things out to him that I wanted him to recognize. I trusted that he knew me well enough to know what I needed. I stopped asking questions or at least knew how to ask the questions with respect. I sank deeper and deeper into my submission to Him. Those that knew me knew that I put Him first. And I did. Taking care of Him was my goal and serving Him was my true passion.

Then, there came a day that I stopped asking ‘why’. I just did as I was told and believed that is what I was supposed to do. I took care of Him as completely as I could. My mind was always on how I could serve Him. The resistence had left. We both recognized that I had become slave. No trumpets, no fanfare. It just was. I then understood the difference between submissive and slave. It is beyond words. It is a way of being. It is who I am.

Today, a belt was wrapped around my neck and I was pulled down to kiss His feet. I obeyed instantly and completely. No question as to why this was happening or if it was punishment or reward or anything else. I obeyed. I kissed His feet. I was totally present in the action of the moment and being allowed to worship his feet and therefore, Him. I did not struggle or question. There was no struggle in my heart. As he pulled me up, the belt tightened and the blackness began creeping in from the sides of my vision. I did not struggle. I trusted completely that he would take care of me. He did so as I knew he would. Over the years he has earned my complete trust. He is my Master. I am His slave.

Recently, we realized we miss having a peer group of people who are either in 24×7 power exchange relaitonships, or identify as lifestyle Master, Dominants, submissives or slaves. I asked around and no one spoke up about having such a discussion group running for people who are not members of a specific group (in the Columbus area). We’ve had a few people email or IM us about getting this sort of thing started and how it would make them happy to attend. So…

So, we decided to host one. We are going to sit around and chat about topics that are related to Ms and Ds and TPE relationships. And we are inviting you to join us.

It will be an informal gathering, in a roundtable open discussion format. We’ve run a few of these in the past and they go pretty easy once you get them moving.

We will be meeting at 6 PM, on June 21rst. Location to be determined.

What – Ms roundtable

When – 6 PM, June 21rst

Where – to be determined

Who – anyone interested in Ms/Ds as a lifestyle

Questions? Feel free to write me at chg2winter at gmail dot com

* We are not associated with any group nor are we creating a new one. We are just people of common interest, discussing a common topic.

* When we say Dom or Master, we are not talking about topping in a scene. We are not talking about anything related to play. We are talking about this as a lifestyle.

* Will this be a one time event? Or happen every month? Or every 3rd Wednesday of a month with a new moon? Depends on if people like the idea or if we find out another group already does this (no reason to reinvent the wheel)